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State of Shadowy Affairs

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I deleted my Instagram account.

I’ve been spreading myself too thin. With my blog, twitter, my ASMR YouTube channel, new YouTube channel, writing my novel, writing bedtime stories for my ASMR channel, working, handling my increasingly messed up health, and then – you know, life….

Too much.

I don’t like repeating myself across social media platforms because I feel like that’s fake or pointless. I like to share honestly regardless of where I’m at. And finding a way to be me across that many platforms is not doable for me. It’s made it hard for me to post at all, anywhere. Especially since no one site will show a true depiction of all of me, considering I don’t want to be repetitive.

So I cut down and thought I’d take the moment to share what I’m up to…

 

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This Blog

I don’t spend enough time here. I haven’t gotten to do any fun research posts lately because I’m so spread thin.

Gonna have to fix that!

Plus you guys kinda have no clue what’s going on in my life lately. Since this is my blog and all about human connection, that doesn’t really make sense to me. So I’m going to have to remedy that too.

 

ASMR YouTube Channel

I posted my first ASMR video on January 18th, 2019. For those of you scratching your head and wondering what on earth ASMR is….

ASMR is weird. Flat out strange. I do ASMR and I love it but I recognize that it’s legit so weird! It is a bunch of people doing weird things, using odd objects to make sounds on and around microphones.

ASMR stands for “autonomous sensory meridian response”. Think ocean waves, the sound of someone’s soothing voice lulling you to sleep, a subtle and calming white noise, or birds chirping off in the distance. ASMR is like the satisfaction of having your hairdresser massage your scalp or playing with a Zen garden. The “happy little trees” painter Bob Ross is often considered ASMR.

Some people experience a pleasant tingling sensation in their scalp, neck, and down their spine. (That’s why a lot of ASMR videos talk about “tingles”.) Others don’t. Some people just find it highly relaxing or use it as background noise to help them focus. Different people like different sounds and/or visuals. You will often hear these referred to as “triggers”.

You can find my ASMR channel here:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTsKcCRmmrImwt8soT1SRFg?view_as=public

 

New YouTube Channel

I started this channel and actually started using it, like, last week. The point is to talk about things, whatever things I feel like talking about. It’s going to be busting with loads of different types of stuffs.

Sometimes I just want to talk to you guys in a video.

You can find this new channel here:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTC53mhzwfRmk5WY1O2p0fA

 

Twitter

I haven’t been on twitter in eons. I really want to get on there and be me way more often. I don’t know why, but I tend to be hesitant to say what I’m thinking 100% on there. I think it might be because of how political it can be, and that’s not my thing. But it does seem to get people in a defensive, angry way of communicating and I don’t want to deal with drama.

But whatever. I need to learn to be me and not worry if anyone has a problem with it.

My twitter handle is: @DaphneShadows

 

Bedtime Stories on ASMR

On my ASMR YouTube channel, I’ve started doing something new. I’m going to make bedtime stories and whisper them or speak softly to tell them.

Doing them for ASMR presents quite the challenge but also an interesting bucket of possibilities. It’s not exactly the same as writing a novel because the language has to be more flowery and repetitive for ASMR and the story doesn’t have to be as strictly structured or paced. So it’s an odd change to make. But fun, so far.

Here is my first video:

I’m also working on a second bedtime story with a different feel to it, while working on chapter two of the above story.

 

My Novel

I haven’t worked on my novel in a month now. Everything has stopped moving in my life because my health has gone downhill and I’ve been in too much physical pain to focus on anything. I’ve literally lived on my couch, crying and trying to breathe.

I really want to get back to my novel. I’ve plotted the basic timeline of the story out and written the first two chapters, getting myself up to a word count of over 13,000 words. (A normal novel of my genre is 80,000 to 100,000 words.)

And I want to share some tidbits about my story with you. *evil smile*

 

Work

Do you remember when I was terrified I’d never have a job I liked and be able to hold it down with my health?

I now work 5 hours a day, Monday through Friday, 25 hours a week as an office manager for a technology company – and I love it. I get along with all my coworkers and both bosses (what are the odds, right?) and I enjoy my work. I get to organize things all day. It’s perfect!

I started on March 26th, 2019.

 

Life

I’m all jacked up! And it would take quite a while to catch you up. So let’s not spend the rest of this post yammering on. I’ll get to me in the future.

 

How are you doing?

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What Do You Have to Lose?

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Seriously.

What do you have to lose?

TAKE the RISK!

DO the THING!

Whatever you’re holding yourself back from, but you KNOW you need to do? Do it!

 

Don’t let fear hold you back.

Yes, take the necessary baby steps and precautions and plan things out responsibly. But don’t give into the bully of fear.

We get so upset about what COULD go wrong, what mistakes we COULD make.

But do we ever sit around and get upset over what we’re not inventing? What we’re not succeeding at? What we’re not bringing into this world? How we’re not changing our lives?

 

There is SO MUCH we have to offer – IF we can get ourselves over the paralysis created by fear.

If we’re making mistakes, that means we’re going after our dreams and goals (even though we’re afraid or nervous or anxious or straight up petrified) and we’re trying and finding new ways to try and adapting and changing course.

Do not give up. Mistakes are a symptom of LIVING. And mistakes don’t mean you’re bad, a loser, or no good. It means you just learned what not to do, what doesn’t work, what to avoid. We have to know what doesn’t work if we’re going to find what does work.

 

There’s no way to get rid of your fear. Just don’t let it hold you back from living.

I don’t know where I heard this, but someone said something along these lines:

What if we stopped worrying about what terrible thing could happen if we chased our dreams – and instead worried about what will happen if we do nothing toward our dreams?

 

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Medical Professional on the Corona Virus

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So, I know a lot of people are freaking out about the corona virus right now, and I thought you might want to hear a doctor weigh in on it. I watch this guy’s videos all the time and I trust him as a source. He’s funny but honest.

And you know honesty is HUGE for me.

Like, earth shaking. Earth shattering. Earth quake inducing.

No honesty? No Daphne.

 

The internet and the media are FANTASTIC at making a mountain out of a molehill. Getting people in a state of panic is not healthy, especially if there’s absolutely no reason to be frightened.

Me? I like to get the facts. Not someone’s take on the facts, not the most trending headline, or what the current popular famous person has to say about it. I want to know from someone who knows what they’re taking about. And I like to check multiple sources.

(I know, I know, I know, Dr. Mike is famous. But he’s a pretty interesting case. He didn’t set out to be famous but to show that doctors are humans and to spread help to others.)

 

But anywho. Here’s his original video and most recent update on the corona virus. 🥰 His name is Dr. Mikhail Varshavski and he is a real, practicing doctor.

Stay safe all of my lovely crazies!!!

 

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Break Room Savvy #2

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I love Les Brown as a motivational speaker so I thought I’d use one of his quotes this weekend in my office’s break room. 🥰

What do you want to get started?

Me? I’ve begun going sugar free. Unhealthy sugar that is. In hopes that my gut will heal.

Your turn.

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Social Media and Guns Are the Same Type of Thing

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EVERYTHING is a 2-sided coin.

I believe social media is no different.

Take away twitter, take away blogs and instagram and tik tok, etc… People will STILL find a way to hurt each other.

I think everything we have created or discovered is usable for good or evil. It all depends on the choices we make.

Like guns. Take away guns, make them illegal – bad people will get them illegally and if they cannot, they will use a knife, a brick, their nearest blunt object. If someone has decided they’re going to kill someone, the objects available won’t typically change their mind about killing them. Where there is a will, there is a way.

Guns and social media are both TOOLS.

How we use them matters.

And I will always, ALWAYS, opt to have social media even though it spreads pain. Humans will always find a way to spread pain (I don’t understand why, but it’s true). But look at the good social media can do.

THE POSITIVE POTENTIAL IS LIMITLESS.

How would the isolated, abused, and young human being know there are good people in the world? That there ARE people that exist that truly care? Or people that have been through the same thing and

Are.

Now.

Okay.

They made it through and you can too.

Without social media I wouldn’t have known.

Social media connects us and HUMAN CONNECTION is the only way to live this life. Isolation hurts most of us. It is literally a way to torture another human.

We need each other. And social media can connect us.

I will keep it because there is goodness that comes of it. And I want to squeeze all the goodness out of this world there is to find. We deserve to enjoy this life, we deserve hope and inner peace.

How has social media helped you?