I have them.
As we speak (or, you know, as I write this), I am uploading a video onto YouTube.
This video has me nervous. Unsure. Kinda wishing I would accidentally delete it.
What is it?
Why, thank you for asking, super-secret blogosphere stalker.
It is the first video in a new series of bedtime stories.
I’m doing this thing called ASMR. (I’ll talk more about that at a future date.)
For now, all you need to know is I’ve created a playlist called “ASMR Whispering Originals”.
It’s something I have never done before.
I am used to writing stories, editing and re-writing them eight thousand times before ANYONE SEES THEM, EVER.
I am kinda FREAKING OUT!
The bedtime story?
I didn’t write it.
I didn’t edit it.
I didn’t even come up with a plot line.
I jotted down a few ideas –
“once upon a time”
“magic in the world”
“all magic taken away by dragons to keep humans safe”
“magic put into 3 strongest creatures: one young woman, one mother, one old man”
“go to djinn”
“knock on doors for dragon egg”
“ask the dead”
I made everything up as I went.
And I’ve not edited it. Nor have I ever told a story out loud. I’m not sure I’m good at it. I’m not even certain I like it. And I swallow really loudly once during the video.
Did I mention I’m whispering the whole time? (It’s an ASMR thing.)
Anywho. I have that writely clenching before exposing a story to another human being. Only this time it’s very, very different and probably has more adverbs than you can shake a stick at.
I think if I can get over the writer uncertainty (and shut my inner critic in the basement), that it would be fun.
It was a little fun, actually, to come up with stuff and whisper as I went. Now all I need to do is get over the fear and focus on having fun.
Besides, it’s a bedtime story. It’s supposed to be flowery and weird and not precise or make entirely perfect sense.
Any writers here ever make something up on the spot and show it to your audience immediately? It’s terrifying. How’d you deal with it? Did you have fun?
I swear I should make a new 30-day fear challenge. This is totally terrifying.
Afraid of it?
Oh, and it isn’t the entire story.
What do you think?
To be continued…