Stream of Consciousness

pinky promise?

promise me this

if you get lost

you’ll keep looking for a path, a light, an opening

don’t give up

don’t give in to the cold and the darkness so eagerly reaching its hands out to you, fingers outstretched, wanting you to curl up in a ball at the base of a gulf so wide and deep you’ll never find which way is up to crawl out

keep going

one breath at a time

one choice at a time

one footstep into the unknown you’re facing at a time

knowing

knowing you can handle whatever comes next

and no matter how much it hurts, stretches you, scars you – you are stronger

 

promise me

promise me

you will never give up

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Stream of Consciousness

what to do if you’re having a bad day

it’s a day.

a day where i trip over the flat ground i know well and walk daily.

where tying my shoes becomes hard again and my fingers turn to butter.

my screen freezes and people are all out of sync with themselves, agitated and bumping into each other’s raw emotions. poking at each other’s soft spots and highlighting all our weak places.

the air conditioner broke and my head is spinning and i might have just gotten an email i’d rather ignore.

 

it’s a day.

doesn’t seem to matter how hard i try to regain my composure. the universe seems dead set on slapping me upside the head. on keeping me on the ground, under its shoe.

it’s the big things, just one is all it takes. but a few more join in anyway. in for a penny, in for a pound.

it’s the little things, ganging up to beat me into submission. i just never learn to stay down.

 

what to do?

i guess the best plan of action is to ignore what i’m feeling and rely on some cold reason or sheer stubbornness.

i’m worth it. making it to tomorrow, a fresh start, sure.

but what about today?

i don’t want to let it go, just yet.

it’s dead set on breaking me, slathering me through the mud. but i don’t care what it wants.

i have to live inside this body, this mind. i want what i want for me.

 

so i will keep trying. even though everything hurts and i feel done. even though my emotional state sucks and everything in my life is flipping me off.

i’m going to keep trying.

i’m worth it.

and so are you.

i’m going to move toward my dreams today – even if i can’t make any headway, i’m going to aim for them anyway.

i’m going to live inside my hopes even though all visible proof shows it’s pointless.

i’m going to know things will get better, even if it doesn’t seem likely. even if the day gets worse – i’m going to hold out hope anyway.

 

and if the day doesn’t get better, too bad. i’ll keep at it anyway. one thing i won’t let it do is get me to stop.

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Never Give Up

Let me put that better…

Always keep moving forward, always keep trying.

 

Whatever you’re struggling with today, you can handle it, I promise.

Even if it’s hard and it’s a struggle the whole time – you’re still winning.

I mean, seriously – what’s your track record?

You’ve survived every single bad day, horrid challenge, and painful experience. You’ve beaten all of your trials in life. You have a 100% success rate.

You’re still here. You’re still trying.

 

Don’t forget to pay attention to how much you’ve grown, achieved, learned, and succeeded at.

You’ve got this.

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What To Do

when you don’t know what to do.

Rise.

Keep trying.

Pick a new plan, route, goal, decision.

Rest.

Keep trying.

Search for your purpose.

Keep searching.

Keep resting and trying.

Enjoy life.

No, really.

Have fun.

Help someone else (because you want to).

Rise.

Keep trying.